Super Cape

We went for a walk tonight trying to encourage some laboring. 

We told Joshua he could wear his jammies since we weren't going to be gone long. It was a 'super-cape' kind of night. Wonder Pets jammies are saved for special nights, and going for a walk in jammies was special. 

I'm not big into superheroes especially for boys as young as Joshua. But as our son ran down the sidewalk arms behind him confident in his superhero abilities, I told Michael I wouldn't care if all jammies came with capes, because Joshua was adorable.

Fish Failures

Tender hearted Michael said we could go to the pet store as part of our "family adventures" on Saturday. "Forever Young" came on as our son oogled the fish.

We came home with a starter aquarium and two goldfish.

Joshua was over the moon!!

Obviously, we were over excited and not prepared.

Both fish were dead in the morning. Fail.
(14 day guarantee, we'll head back the pet store and try our hand at "new" fish.)

Pressure

I've been feeling lots of pressure to make sure that Joshua and I are having sentimental moments or meaningful family moments. I want to be sure that we are having special time before Silas arrives, not that we wouldn't have meaningful family moments after he is born.

Thud Moment...

You've never seen a pregnant woman move the way I moved last night, or this afternoon.

I've had two "thud moments" where my heart has dropped into the heels of my feet and my stomach turned inside out today.

I am an extremely light sleeper, and this morning, around 2, I heard the thud before I heard the cries for help. I knew what the thud was immediately, and was on my feet instantly. I ran to Joshua's room where he was lying spread eagle on the floor tears in his eyes. He had fallen out of bed. My heart hurt and my eyes filled.

If that had not been enough for one day, I was chatting with Pastor during pick-up time today, and heard the 'beep-beep' of the school doors. It took me a moment to realize that Joshua was not next to me. Yelling down the hall, "Joshua!" I see him run past the window... he was outside. He was not the one who had opened the door, but went out with another family. The panic that fills your body, not knowing where your child is, and then seeing them outside is horrifying. The gate was closed. He was in the parking lot, but how quickly he could have been gone, or someone could have taken him makes me sick. I had tears, and a pity party in my second "thud moment."

Beware the hormones...

I like to think of myself as a fairly level headed person, however the mood swings are in full effect and I apologize to those who are caught in the path.

Crabby, motivated, exhausted, teary, sentimental... The list goes on... consider yourself warned...

Oh, I'm sure it will only get better after Silas comes out. Ha!

Contractions, Contractions Everywhere...

and no baby yet.

I've been having contractions for days. They are getting stronger, but not at consistent intervals. It seems that they are worse in the evening and night then when we make it to the morning, they almost disappear. I've reached "I'm uncomfortable. It's time to come out!"

Jelly Toast

I have written about your independence recently, but again it strikes me. 

This week you have started making your own toast, pulling up the stool, taking the bread out, putting each piece into the slots, and pushing down the lever. 

You remind me as I remind you, "Look with our eyes, no hands. It gets 'hottsy-tottsy.'"You get the peanut butter and jelly out of the fridge and sing the "peanut butter jelly" song while you watch me spread them on your toast. A favorite breakfast.